How Can I Not Believe in God?

I’ve known about Jane Isley’s “Why do you believe?” project for almost a year ,  back when it was just an idea, before God had her put it in motion. I had started writing for it then, and I remember my initial reaction being: “How can I not?”

This has been stuck in my head and heart since then. When it comes down to it, how can I not believe? 

My Life

I have seen and experienced too much to simply set God aside or deny His hand in everything. Too much has happened in my life. I’ve seen too many miracles, been pulled from too many dark places, been healed from too much hurt. I look back at my life and see Him guiding, comforting, healing, and walking with me, even when I wasn’t really following Him. He was there through it all. I’ve seen too much of Him in my life and in others’ to ignore.  

Truthfully, I shouldn’t be alive right now. From complications when I was in my mother’s womb, to abusive and dangerous situations, to debilitating health issues and resulting depression ,  it really is a miracle that I am here. It’s also a miracle that I’m not still depressed, bitter, or angry. I’m not stuck in past hurt and trauma, or stopped living my life just because I’m disabled. I’ve moved forward. I push myself (most of the time) to do the things I love and work toward goals like school, going into town or to events, and volunteering at different places. 

But I couldn’t have come this far without God. I could never have done this on my own! In fact, I often hinder my growth and the plans He has for me! (Though thankfully, He has accounted for this). God has healed me. Physically, mentally, and spiritually. He also put people in my life to hold, help, advocate, and motivate me. I wouldn’t have made it if it weren’t for them, too. 

I’ve also found that the more I get to know God and Jesus, the more I see Him everywhere. I can feel His presence and peace surround me, even in the darkest of places. He has proved His character to me countless times, and has kept every single one of His promises. I can trust Him.

Creation

I look at creation and can’t help but see Him. I can see His work in everything, in all the beauty, intricacy, creativity, humor, and wonder. It’s all too much to be reduced to chance or evolution. The more I learn about His creation and how it works, the more in awe I am and the more I can’t deny His existence! 

I recently discovered that certain plants, particularly types of orchids, mimic insects in appearance, feel, and even scent to facilitate pollination and reproduction. The Bee Orchid, for example, poses as a female bee through its visual imitation and production of “pheromones” that are almost exactly those of female bees. This lures in male bees, looking to reproduce themselves, who land on the flower, collecting pollen which it then carries to other Bee Orchids. And don’t get me started on Spider Orchids or Corpse Flowers (some of which can raise their temperature to mimic a freshly dead animal on top of smelling like one)!

The creativity and humor in these plants alone show God’s glory. When looking at all creation, and the processes that have to happen for any of it to exist and thrive, it is insane to think about! This is why I love science , it proves that God has made and thought of everything. It proves His sovereignty. 

I don’t understand how anyone can look at all creation, look at science, and ecosystems, cells, forests, mountains, and all of it, and not see that it all requires a Creator to exist the way it does. Simple chance can’t do all of that, even with billions of years. 

Humanity

And look at humanity. Our tendencies that repeat throughout history show that we crave more than this world has to offer. That no matter how much we gain, there is always something missing. Nothing is ever enough. Nothing from this world at least. 

Jesus is the missing puzzle piece.

The more I study cultures, the more I see how humanity is built to have a relationship with God. From our ability of language, tendency to define right and wrong (which can defy cultural upbringing, showing that morality comes from something deeper), and our social nature. Even the variety of religions or spiritual beliefs that exist or have existed is proof to me of God and our desire for Him. We have always recognized that there is someone or something greater. We can see and feel it. 

I could probably spend days talking about why I believe, and I know God has many more reasons in store for me.

Honestly, I think Brandon Lake sums it up pretty well: More — Brandon Lake

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